Over the weekend I visited North Carolina for business and to see my brother and his girlfriend and drank waaaaay too much on Saturday night.
Yesterday I had a workout with my personal trainer where I felt horrible the entire time. Today I woke up sore.
Last night I had massive insomnia and an overall horrible time for various reasons I won't go into here.
This is all relevant, I promise.
I slept in too much due to the insomnia and had to rush breakfast and coffee before driving out to the stables. Got Cypress, groomed him (he was being a little bit of a butthead but not too bad mostly) but had a lot of problems getting the bridle on him. Couldn't figure out why, the first time I got too much of it into his mouth and couldn't fit the rest over his ears, then after that he just was really obstinate and made it even harder. So I put the harness back on him and went to look for Catherine so she could show me what I was doing wrong.
The biggest problem is that it was adjusted for a smaller horse and I didn't fix that, so it just plain didn't fit him. I remembered she had said something about that in a previous lesson and saddle had the same issue, I feel dumb about forgetting that it was possible that they were on the right sizes for him. But we fixed that and moved on.
Got him into the arena and I rode a little bit to get him warmed up and feel comfortable again, she took off his bridle and put the harness back on and attached him to the lunge line so we could... work on canter for the first time.
Okay now go back up to the top of the post to get the context again.
Cypress was in a bad mood to start, getting him on the lunge line and making him trot as fast as he can to get ready to try the canter made him even more surly. At a certain point he was going very fast and I thought "wow okay this cantering isn't comfortable but I can handle it" and Catherine said "okay let's give him the signal to canter in 3... 2..." and I think my brain broke.
The first time he only cantered for a step or two but my left foot flew out of the stirrup and I think my eyes got very wide. The next time we got a few more steps going and I felt like I was going to be sent to the side of the arena. I started holding on to the horn and back of the saddle like she suggested and my arms, which were very sore from the workout yesterday, were very unhappy but just strong enough to keep me balanced and in the saddle.
She had me work more and more on getting into a better position with better weight distribution and balance and my posting got a ton better, having him going so fast and getting ready for cantering made all the difference in the world for that.
In the end we got a couple full circles at canter and I felt like I was solidly on and leaning into the circle and my weight was just about right. I couldn't quite hover over the saddle with my butt the way I need to, but I at least could start feeling what I needed to do and what the right feel was.
That horse can go.
I asked "and a gallop is ever more than this?!" and she laughed and said "oh yes".
One thing that was tested many times during this lesson was my trust that as a horse he's not going to just run himself full speed into a wall because I didn't tell him to turn. Every time he started getting close I wanted to grab the halter and tell him to TURN but I was finally able to let go of that after a few times around and know that he might do something dumb, but not that dumb.
It was fun and exhilarating, I hadn't felt that rush of adrenaline since sailing over the summer. It felt a lot like my martial arts training used to, pushing myself physically to the edge and trying to do things I'm not sure I can handle. Catherine said we're going to do a bit of it each lesson until I get the hang of it, and I have two more this week (since I'll be visiting Colorado for two weeks around Thanksgiving) and I'm really looking forward to it.